The Next Day

I woke up this morning to my younger two children asking for pancakes. They ask me for pancakes almost everyday. I told them no because we didn't have any syrup. That wasn't the real reason. I just didn't feel like making them. They proceeded to make their own bowls of cereal, my 5 year old so proud because she did it all by herself. I need to figure out quick, easy, and healthy breakfast options.

I feel a little overwhelmed. My heart and mind and body are yearning for a change but the fact of the matter is, my mind can't seem to keep up with change. I usually talk myself out of the hard things that need to get done in order to succeed and then after the disappointment goes away, my life continues on as usual, adding one pound at a time.

I need some sort of plan. I've done weight watchers in the past. The first time I joined, I was successful. I lost almost 40 pounds and I felt and looked pretty good. I was running non stop for 30 minutes straight. That was something that I never could remember being able to do...ever. Then, the weight stopped coming off. I'm pretty sure I was building muscle, but I got frustrated, and slowly started back in my old ways, gradually making my way back up to almost 200 pounds. I've joined Weight Watchers numerous times since then, with little success. I also tried that HcG diet. How did I even survive that? There was probably a reason why I didn't tell too many people what I was actually doing. I knew what they would say. I counted calories for awhile while doing Body by Vi which worked until I didn't want to pay for it anymore. The truth is, I don't want to count points or calories FOR.THE.REST.OF.MY.LIFE! I know some weight loss gurus out there are going to tell me that I won't have success if I'm not counting something. They might be right, but I am going to figure something out, on my own, that works for me.

I crawled out of bed and waddled on my sore feet to the bathroom. I stepped on the scale to reveal a weight of 193.3 pounds. That is about one pound shy of my heaviest weight ever. It's time for me to get busy. I know this is going to be hard, but I can do hard things...I hope!